Here I come! Got a volunteer spot!
Of my tumblr… What the fuck, I haven’t had it for 4 years
28 Days - Upstyledown
Oh the memories
my life is a vicious cycle of trying to get my shit together but failing
on November 20th at the Forum!
I bought so many parts to upgrade my mac, I can’t wait.
My migraine is finally gone… I hope.
I can do this, it may not be easy but I will not do it and do it the best I can. I want to enjoy what little time we have on this planet and if I can’t I’ll do my best to help the less fortunate because they don’t deserve the shit they go through.
One of my best friends and ex housemates came over last night for a late night bud session and catch up.
It was so nice, I haven’t really spoken too him properly since I had my last breakdown. Which is the first breakdown I’d had since he od’d in my room and nearly died, as well as what happened with his ex after they broke up.
We didn’t talk about those things specifically but we went through a lot in that house. It was so good too see and speak to him especially now that he’s getting help and getting clean and that’s his only goal and he really does want this. I was a bit apprehensive at first I guess because I was unsure if he was fully in it and really does want to get clean. Everyone else apart from me has pretty much given up trying and putting in the effort and fallen back into it. I guess I was just scared that it may be a half assed attempt.
He is getting closure on a number of issues in which he was putting off and in turn took a severe toll.
Also he has to be able to reflect back on the past because it’s important to deal with what’s happened and to reflect back on the life you know longer want to live and move on with things. I’m so proud of him though, he said “sometimes I don’t feel like anyone’s proud of what I’m doing”. That was pretty hard too hear I guess a lot of people may expect or think he will just give up. I however have a lot of faith in him and that he can do it, he can he’s a strong person he just needs to learn to deal with things in different and better ways.